You know what? The hardest thing in your life is when your own brother/sister/mom/dad/blah blah blah, are not talking to you without any reasons. In my case, my brother. I don't know why he don't want to talk to me. I feel so empty right now. It's the fact that I have a 'beautiful' family. A 'friendly' friends but actually, it's all empty.

I feel like I'm fading away from the family. I'm fading away from my friends and the most dangerous thing is, I'm fading away from myself. I'm not sure why I feel that way. It's like there's something missing in my life. And of course is not about LOVE. My heart is still lock for guys right now. It's just this thing that is missing. I just can't find it anywhere. =/ I need someone to talk but I just don't like to tell stories about me. This is why I have you,to express my feelings in here. I felt so empty.

Now, what's wrong with me? What did I do wrong? I want to cry but nah, I don't want because I hate to see myself crying over and over again. This is because, when I cried, no one will listen. I hate to let others know why I cried and in the end they comfort me. I just don't want to burden them with my pathetic tears. Just a waste of a time. =/ Seriously, I don't know why? :'(

I think, the best way to solve this is to keep silence because, silence is the best way to communicate. I rather not talk than talking. I rather be like this than be loud.

Should I change? Or should I not change? *shrugged*

Empty...

I'm busy woman now. Will update when I'm done. K bye. :)



I missed to play paintball!

I don't why but I feel like my blog is getting stagnant each time I enter into my blog. It's like a ghost town where no one will read my blog. Maybe there's some soul but I don't really care about who read my blog or whatever shit anymore. Cause, I don't care! :)

I would love to share this photos of ECP. :) A picnic over at ECP on 26/12/2010. Take a look. :)























I'm done bye! :)

Welcome to the year TWO O O ELEVEN! :) I know I've been ditching this blog of mine for such a long time. Been very lazy to update and I'm so shagged ever since the school have already started. Grr. And also, I didn't celebrate new year as I know, my life is as the same as 2010. The only thing I know of is I'm BROKE! I need money to spend and for myself also! Help! =/

2011, so far so good. Started of with laughter and cry a bit and now everything is already fall into places. Because I've recharge myself and rest. Now I feel nothing and I don't need to think anything to make me cry or sad anymore. :) Thanks to a friend of mine for making me realize how important to open up to myself. I'm a low self-esteem person who need to be guide! I've learnt something for the month of January.

I've been slacking a lot for this semester. I don't know what happened to me but I did badly for my term test. NO! I did not fail a single thing but I didn't ace it like how I used to aced. I think, my GPA for this semester will be drop dead soon! Choy, touch wood but I just hope I can maintain my GPA of 3. Because, I had enough of GPA of 2. LOL. Just pray hard I can do it. I wanted to get A for my project can? Can? :)

My ex just added me yesterday. I've forgiven him already. Not yesterday but a long time ago. Gonna be my 2 years of single life hood and I'm going to enjoy myself to the fullest. Being with him is such a MISTAKE but hey, everybody makes a mistake right? So pardon me. :) I've moved on long time ago and why not, I accept him as my friends list. No harm as long as he keep his filthy mouth shut. I'm fine if he wants to be my friend. I don't want to have any hard feelings on him. So yeah. I've moved on! :)

Ahh, don't want to talk about the past. For me, I've already put my past behind me. There's nothing for me to think about it anymore. So let's enjoy what is install for me NOW. HUHU.

Oklah, I'll be back whenever I've something to share. Bye people. :)

Friendly Ghost.