Anws, life have been so so good. Now everyone is busy with their schedules. More to come for mine. Just last week, I have to stay back to study in school with the friends since Quiz is coming this week. Mind you, 3 quizzes. How to survive like this? Sigh much. I need to sit down and really study and write some notes. I just need to do that alone without any distraction. Well, Insyaallah, I will make time for my study time ok. I can only study in school or outside my house. :) I know I can do it just that I need to discipline myself.
Put aside that, my relationship is good and insyallah it will turn out to be great. Honestly, I've never been so happy like this. He can make my day. He can be so annoying but I kept falling hard on him. In love again and again. Alhamdulilah. Though there's some days I can be very bad and mean to him but at the end of the day, he can tolerate my nonsense. Tell me, which relationship doesn't undergoes this? There will be always one time you just need his special attention towards you. You can be selfish. You can be that 'girl who doesn't understand' type of a girl but what matters the most was to talk things out with your partner. Putting aside your ego and everything gonna fall into places again. Trust me. I had enough of arguments. I had enough of not being good with someone I love and it's time to change. I want to change for myself for my happiness not because he said so. Just imagine, if I'm the type who always controlled him but at the same time, I don't want him to control me and that was so so unfair. I'm not being fair with him. I'm just selfish. No. I don't want to repeat my same mistakes like in my previous relationship. Maybe I didn't trust the old him like how I trust my bf. I have to compare between you and him. I think, it was a mistake to be in love with him. Till my heart broke into pieces. There's a scar in my heart, but my bf heal it with his love. He did not said "I love you" for free like that, he proved it to me that he really really loves me. He respected me. He is just so awesome. I regard him not only my boyfriend but my as my best friend as well. I can share, I can talk anything that I want with him without being tired of it. Hey you, I love you more and more every seconds, minutes and time. :D
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