Temper

Warning, this update may content vulgarities. Read it at your own risk. *peace*

I admit it that I'm losing my temper slowly. I don't have the patience anymore especially to my sister. I maybe quiet, I maybe ignorance but my heart is boiling of anger. I feel like punching her straight to her face. I feel like throwing her stuffs at her face. I feel like side kick her face. But I know, this is not the way of teaching her a lesson. Besides, she's 21 years old already. She have the brain to think. To think of what's the best for her. I admit tonight, I'm losing my temper and I'm holding back my tears.

Because whatever she did, everyone will just keep quiet even if she disrespect me. Not only that, she has gone too far by disrespecting my father. Here's the thing, my dad love to hear songs especially the karaoke type. He loves to blast it out and I myself sometimes feel so bingit but all I can do is to keep quiet and bare with it. It's his hobby. He loves it why not give him a chance to blast it out. It's not that he blast it out everyday. Only Sunday. One day out of 7 days. Itu pun susah ke? Yet, she made that pathetic face and keep on complaining that it's sooo noisy. Shouted at my dad to keep the volume down. Infront of the cousin. WHAT THE FUCK,sia. I'm sorry for the language. I am soo geram already. I stared at her and I dare not to raise my voice to her cause I respect my parents. I can't be scolding her infront of my parents. This is why, I chose to keep quiet. I hate it but I have no choice. My dad have to give in and stop everything. Come on man.

And she can't be asked around to do house chores. She will make the face and do it unsincerely. I seriously feels like urghhhh, slap her! If she think she's already working and she earn herself her own money, I hope she don't be such an arrogant bitch lah ok. Ok fine, she gave me money for my allowance. But so? Doesn't mean she have to disrespect me! I am her elder sister for goodness sake! Apa gunanye kalau belajar tinggi-tinggi tapi kurang ajar dengan orangkan. Diploma cert tu kau gi bakar lah! =/ I can't tegur her. She will answered back with loud tone. Haiz. I'm just so sad,angry,upset,disappointed! Gah!

She did it again tonight. I am sorry but you have gone too far. It's lucky, I managed to control my anger. You're lucky that I can control myself from slapping your face, throwing your stuffs away. You're so lucky.

I don't know what happened to me and abang. We're not in talking terms since last week. What is wrong with you? I didn't say anything rude to you. And why are you boycotting me? What have I done? Is it because of me not borrowing your laptop? Is it because of that small thing you don't want to see my face nor talk to me? I find it childish. You're going to get married soon, please act as one. Why you have to boycot me with this nonsense? Abang, did you know that you're being unfair to me? You didn't ask adik but when I said I'm not playing that laptop, you just merajuk like that. EH COME ON LAH! Until you didn't even give me monthly allowance? I don't want your money. But this is one of your responsibility. You're lucky that I didn't ask mom to ask you for the money. You can keep that money of yours. Seriously. I don't need it if this continues. This explain the short of money I have now. Sigh.

Sometimes, it's better if I don't have any siblings. Whatever I do, will always be wrong in their eyes. I just want to cry. I rant this because I am too sad already. I just hope everything will stop.

For now, I leave it like this.